[This is a genuinely unsettling subject to have turned toward. Kratos isn't sure how it happened; and he isn't sure how to answer Yuan's remark, regardless. After a moment, he turns back to the dishes.]

I can't think of anything material. To have lived a worthy enough life is, perhaps, too abstract; but I like to think I've conducted myself in as honourable a fashion as has been available to me.

[Thinking about what he might want when it's already been denied him -- yes, that seems too difficult a task.]