It was the worst because I had no one to hand them back to me when the time came. I had to go out and remap those needs, without the benefit of a switch the key crest provides. It only does that when introduced after the transformation begins.

[There are times he wonders how much he would have supported Mithos, at the start, if he hadn't still been lacking those elements of himself which made him human. So many half-elves are willing to give up the parts of them they consider inferior ... he isn't even sure it's possible for them to get those back. (Could Yuan, if he tries? If he wants? Sometimes Kratos wonders what Yuan wants, these days.)

[Kratos doesn't know, and he can't change the past. All he can do is wonder -- would he have had the will to stop Mithos earlier, if only he'd remembered what it felt like to be in pain?]